My sister sent me this song because she said it made her think of us, and what our little family is going through right now. Anyone who has struggled through times that took you beyond the ends of yourself can relate, I'm sure. That's just about everyone, isn't it?
I trust there's a reason for all of this. I trust that the pain we feel now, the struggle we engage with now and all that it entails, is not in vain. I have confidence that God is going to use the life of this little one in a powerful way.
But when it hurts like it's been hurting lately, it just feels like pain. When it is ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER it feels impossible with impossible on top, served in a big steaming dish of impossible -- like there's no way we can wake up one more morning and face what we have to face.
There's a lot more I could say, but enough from me. Here's the song already:
Before the Morning
UPDATE: All my sister knew when she sent me this song was that Josh Wilson had written it for friends. Thanks to the heart moms out there for letting me know just HOW perfect a song this is. He wrote it for friends of his who had a baby with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (so of course, I've already sent this to Jill). Thanks to Joye for the link!
Here is the backstory: