Ever since we found out about Ewan's heart, I've thought about Abraham and Isaac: how Abraham received Isaac as a promise in his old age, and then how God asked him to climb Mount Moriah and sacrifice that son. God asked Abraham to hold a knife over his son and offer him up. Abraham obeyed -- he took his son and after placing him on the altar, held the knife over him. And God stayed his hand at the last minute -- the last possible second, in fact.
I not only believe, but know that your prayers sustained us last night. I have never been so completely at peace. As odd as it sounds, as much as it doesn't make sense for it to be that way, I was at peace with whatever the outcome. If we had to say goodbye to Ewan. If we got to hang on to him for a little bit longer. We've known from the start that he was really never ours to begin with. We already knew we had absolutely no control over this situation, or its outcome.
And yet I remained completely at peace. I love my son with an impossible love, but I had in my heart something I've never experienced to quite this level before: the peace that passes understanding. And it did pass all understanding. It is real. I received precisely the grace I needed for that long night as we were walking through the Valley of the Shadow of Death.
We witnessed a real, honest-to-God miracle last night. You should have seen the primary surgeon's face as he spoke with us. The word "miracle" was not used, but he was positively giddy. Even with the long road we had ahead of us, about twelve hours ago no one (and I mean not one) had the hope of us getting to this point.
It's as if God brought us to the point of complete and utter surrender, leaning fully into our faith, and stayed the hand of death at the last minute. No one knows how this will turn out. There are absolutely no guarantees as to the outcome. But for now, death did not have the victory. We are here. Ewan is stable and very boring right now -- all things considered, we're not only hanging on -- things are looking good.
Taking it hour by hour, minute by minute.
Thanks be to God! And please continue to pray.