I've been thinking about this space a lot and wondering what its future might be. It's been helpful for me to use this space as I process and move through the grief of losing Ewan, to connect with other mothers (whether they have been through anything like this or not), and to continue to share this beautiful baby boy with the world.
When I first set up the blog, I had three very specific ideas in mind: 1) To get as many people praying for Ewan as possible, 2) Connect with other mothers/families who had been through similar experiences, and 3) To share information about congenital heart defects, the most common type of birth defect that so many people have never heard of before.
Maybe some of you have been wondering along with me: What now?
Team Ewan has turned into something more than I ever envisioned: a place for me to process through grief, share how I see God leading me on this path, and what I continue to learn from Ewan along the way. The connections that I have made with so many of you who visit here have transformed me. I certainly have my own ideas for the future for this space, but just like our journey with Ewan, I've learned that sometimes my ideas are too small. I've learned that what I want might not be the best thing -- or in fact what I really want at all. Over the course of the last month or so, I've seen this site turn into something way better than I ever could have imagined.
And so I'm holding the question open and am going to keep my eyes open to see if and how the answer presents itself. I'm not going to force it or press it or rush it -- I think the answer will be obvious when it comes.
So, Ewan ... what should we do now?